2010 Conviction

How can a mistake be so wrong if it feels so right?

TELL ME.

Kung kasalanan man na ibigin ka, pwes ayoko na lang maging tama....

-ORAKULO

"Home"

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Merry Christmas You!

Finally makakatulog na rin. Had a very tiring but very meaningful Christmas Eve. May this season's true Joy, Hope and Love be the reason to keep us going.... Christmas won't be complete without you crossing my mind. I may not have you physically right but it's so okay, I always have you in my heart. Missing you tonight... Merry Christmas! Love you! =) If you only knew what transpired in the last few days, I know you'd be proud of me as I am proud of you. Kaya mu yan... Now i can sleep... Nyt dear... Zzzzz

How Could I Say Goodbye?

29 October 2008 around 4pm
A beautiful warm sunny day.
In a quiet and secluded place in tune with nature.
The day I first laid my eyes on You...

After everything that happened...
I was supposed to hate you
And You weren't supposed to come
But You did.

It wasn't about what I saw,
Neither was it about the reason you came.
It wasn't about the uncertainty I was in.
It was You.

It wasn't about anything You said,
It certainly wasn't what you were wearing.
And definitely not with a friend you were with.
It's You.

It was surreal.
And it hits one down to the core.
It's funny and I agree.
But it's just magical.

It's unexplainable.
It's beyond what I've ever felt before.
For something or anyone.
It feels just like home.

I wanted to know more
I wanted to spend more time
I wanted the reasons for such a feeling
But the more I asked the more it became real.

I wanted to let it go...
I wanted to forget you...
Many times I tried and tried...
But I failed, and failed again and again...

So I let you stay...
It was sweet sorrow...
And since then It changed me...
Changed me forever in a profound way.

I don't know how this is going to unfold...
I don''t know how this is going to end...
I don't know where it's going to lead...
All I know is I Found You.

And everything seems to be okay...
Don't worry about me.
I'm happy and I'm doing very well...
And I hope you are too.

What I have is pointless...
What I do is irrelevant...
What I am is nothing...
In what I see in You.

Do me a favor...
Take care of yourself...
Come back in one piece...
I'm building our home.

Why?

Because You Came.

I always mean what I say...
You ought to know that by now.

I love you.

So tell me? How could I ever say goodbye?



-ORAKULO

Paano Mahalin ang Katulad Mo?

Di ko maikakaila ang pag-aalala
Na sa tuwi-tuwina’y dala-dala
Nangangamba, nangangamba
Na baka mapahamak ka

Dapat sarilinin ko na lang
Kayrami-rami mong pasan-pasan
Baka lalo ka pang mabibigatan

Itatago ko ang aking kaba

At ikukubli ang pangangamba
Ngunit sa dilim

Ay napapansin mo ang takot ko

Ang dinadaing koy para sa iyo

Ang unti-unting matutunan ko

Paano mahalin

Paano mahalin ang katulad mo

Di ko maikakaila ang pag-aalala
Ngunit di ba mas mahalaga
Ang dinggin ka, intindihin ka,
Samahan ka sa bawat pasya

Paano ba ako makakagaang
Paano ba ako makakatuwang
Paano kung ako ay nasasaktan

Itatago ko ang aking kaba

At ikukubli ang pangangamba
Ngunit sa dilim

Ay napapansin mo ang takot ko

Ang dinadaing koy para sa iyo
Ang unti-unting matutunan ko

(Counterpoint)

Paano ba ako makakagaang
Paano ba ako makakatuwang

Paano mahalin

Paano mahalin ang katulad mo

Interlude

Paano mahalin

Paano mahalin ang katulad mo

...missing you...

-ORAKULO

Love without Talking

Quietly, simply, tenderly...
The world stood still
I could not say a word
Nor a single gestured showed.

The feeling kept in my heart
So I've loved you in silence
Humbly from a distance
And wished you well in everything.

I want to say I Love You,
But I'm afraid...
Afraid that you'll just take it for granted.
In silence then, I'll just love you.

In silence I'll find...
The fulfillment of my dreams.

...is a GIFT

Love shall never pause,
Strong and determined with all our flaws.
It endures and doesn’t judge,
Never holds a lasting grudge.

Generous, loyal, always kind,
To your outer layer blind.
Surely, opposite of rude,
My beating heart I must include.
On your birthday, my love for you,
From the clouds, a perfect view.
Moments, memories, a year gone by,
I'm here for you, don't you cry.

My love for you, lives by the truth,
A promise to behold, a gift that soothes.
When it sees, our trust and hope,
It climbs and conquers any slope.
A birthday wish for my special love,
Message sent by the purest dove.
Wishing you happiness and success,
With eternal love, I must profess.

I celebrate your birth today,
A geeky person you always portray.
A mysterious soul, a funny one,
You keep me prisoner, can't get nothing done!
I only wish the best for you,
New experiences I hope to pursue.
On this special birthday, I’ll hold you tight,
As flames of love, begin to ignite.

A special heart, from the very start.
Like a work of art, I set you apart...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

May Inspiration Teach Courage Head-on!



Saving the best for last...
... and there's more, much more to come.
hehe! Kala mo

831!

Eight Letters, Three Words, I Meaning...

-ORAKULO

Fear

"In the end, it's better to say too much

than never to say what you need to say..."
John Mayer

Fear and worry paralyzes reason,
the faculty of imagination,
kills self-reliance,
undermines enthusiasm,
discourages initiative,
leads to uncertainty of purpose,
encourages procrastination,
wipes out dreams
and makes self-control an impossibility.

Fear is the real threat to anything in life.

Tonight

"The men of greatest achievement
are men with highly developed sex natures..."
- Napoleon Hill

Tonight I take you to a place...
A place where reason does not exist.

A place where I heal your tired mind and body,
A place where i unleash a very powerful emotion.

Tonight I give in to your deep desires and fantasies...
I give in to your hidden animal nature.

Tonight I'll redefine your concept of pleasure.
Tonight you meet Bliss for the first time again.

Tonight I give in to your incredible persistence...
Tonight we play a Game at point Zero.

-Orakulo

Strong and Weak (Updated)

"When the strong is too weak to hurt the weak...
The weak must be strong enough to leave."
- Anonymous

"Kung ang Matatag ay mahina para saktan pa ang Mahina...
Ang Mahina ay dapat magpakatatag na siyang kusang umalis."

Farewell

This is the part of the story where I take control.
What's important to you is important to me.
This is the part where you have to trust me all the way.
This is the part where you have to believe your heart.

The part where I define love, trust and understanding.

The part where everything is not what it seems.
The part where you learn to fly.
The part where things will depend on you.
The part where doubt shall reign.
Tonight I set you free.
I'm letting you go.
It's going to be really cold and dark.
I hope you find your way back home...
And hopefully I'd be there waiting for you.
This is the part where you get what you deserve.
Not because of me, but because of you.

I Love you. Farewell...

-Orakulo

Random Thoughts

Not all who have opened their eyes see.

To realize something too late brings no relief, only sorrow.
Lessons can be very deceiving,
they act as a scapegoat for foolish decisions.
One can only say he has learned when he has applied it.
Otherwise he has only been informed.
There is a difference.
Some start to see when there is nothing left to see.
It is hard to give understanding to someone with no will
and more difficult to someone with no understanding.
If we look closely, some people even encourage this blindness:
they do because they are twice as blind, or
they see twice as better...

Truth is, a man is only as big as the measure of his thinking.

Missing you...

"The important thing is to be able at any moment
to sacrifice what we are for what we could become."
-Charles Dubois

In my silence...
In my slumber...
In my dreams...
In my hopes...
In my prayers...
In my heart...
I have you.

Because of you, I have learned how beautiful LOVE can be...
May God keep you in the palm of His hands.
Missing you...

-Orakulo

Tired of self-expectations

We all have a tendency to hold on to things that destroy us and cause us to stay unhealthy. As a result, the heaviness of our burdens prevents us from enjoying life. We get caught up in negativity and depression. I have felt it before. The world becomes dark and big to the point that we perceive most things as black and white.
Letting go of our hurts and disappointments and learning to forgive ourselves and others are conscious acts. Forgiving ourselves is not a feeling. It is a choice. We must choose to forgive even if it means swallowing our own pride. Some people hold on to hurts and spend their whole lives being unhappy and miserable. Unfortunately, everyone who touches shoulders with such people senses and absorbs the negative reactions and unhappiness. Who wants to be around someone who is always unhappy, always negative, always complaining?!?

Most of the time...
The things we don't want to see,are the things you have to see.

Truth is , all of us get something-some payoff- when we hold on to things that are unhealthy. Blind loyalty is plain foolishness. Do the math and get the average. You can never be loyal to something or someone which causes you pain. It's contrary to life, to survival. The unfortunate part is that while we hold on to these things, meanwhile, life keeps passing us buy, and we miss healthy moments - moments filled with fun and laughter, true joy. We get "stuck" in pain which suffocates and strangles us, and we find ourselves not opting for life. And worse, we normally hide it deep within, wearing masks of "pseudo-happiness", certainty and strength.

I need to remember that human beings trip and fall, sometimes say things they don't mean, and make mistakes. Those are not failures. They are ruts and grooves that we all need to grow into awareness of. Human beings are not perfect. And that's all i am, all we are - a human being. So why do I expect more of myself than of others? It's just crazy, don't you think? Chilax! Smile. =)

Take your time

Before you form a relationship,
ask yourself if there are things about the other you can't stand.
If there are, ask yourself if
you would be able to live with these things forever.
If the answer is "no", then leave it alone.
Though it's true to expect the reasonable and not the perfect,
remember that your own principles and values do not restrict,
They protect you. Never fall in love with love, most of the time
one will eventually drown from it's own complexities.
Believe me...
Don't think in terms of forever.
Think of NOW, and forever will take care of itself.
Take your time... :)

Get Moving Dylan!

For the next 24hrs, haharap ako para kay Dylan.

Kaya ganyan ang po header ko.
It goes to show I want your attention.
You asked for it, So here it is...
This is for you! :)
Dylan,

We haven't met before.
I don't know who you are.
I don't know the details of your circumstances,
I don't even know your real name,
All i have are mere glimpses of your thoughts and feelings,
probably masking certain things very dear to your heart.
But they do tell a lot, actually they tell everything.
I think you're a very special person.
And i really mean that, but let me tell you this...

Some people wait for others to make them happy.
Some let others set the mood and attitude of their everyday lives.
Some let others determine the whens, hows, whys,
and ifs of their lives.
But the truth is, waiting for others to decide to do things with us
risks our never doing anything at all.

Being "Dimaubusan" is a gift, but rigidity often
hampers the spontaneity of our lives.
It is not necessary to plan every second of our lives.
And even if we do, we must be willing to be surprised
at those plans and how they often take on new shape.

I know you have a good and blessed heart Dylan.
I can pretty much read how your clever mind works.

All I wish for you is to be happy...
To have that true joy you deserve...

So what's my point?

Drink something else aside from coffee!
LOOSEN UP!
God is on your side!
Get Movin!

Happy Birthday Dylan!

You spin my head right round...
Follow my lead...
Dance with me!
It's time to PARTY!

CHEERS! :)

-Orakulo

Acceptance and Respect

"Where there is no vision, the people perish"
- Proverbs 29:18

Be it in Friendship or Love...
Vision implies spontaneity, surprise, creativity and wonder.
It opens our minds to acceptance and respect.
Acceptance recognizes and honors our differences.
Respect refuses to make assumptions about others;
it listens and learns from each person.
Both self-worth and dignity flourish when we give acceptance and respect.

Happy 1,2,3,4 Monthsary Mark and Riza!
Time flies really fast...
Keep acceptance and respect alive...
Wishing you all the Best!
God Bless!

- ORAKULO

Araw ng Kalayaan

REPUBLIKA NG PILIPINAS

1987 Konstitusyon

PREAMBLE

Kami, ang nakapangyayaring sambayanang Pilipino,

na humihingi ng tulong sa Makapangyarihang Diyos,
upang bumuo ng isang makatarungan at makataong lipunan
at magtatag ng isang Pamahalaan
nakakatawan sa aming mga mithiin at mga lunggatiin,
magtataguyod ng kabutihan sa bawat isa,
mangangalaga at magpapaunlad ng aming kamanahan,
at titiyak para saming sarili at angkanang susunod
ng mga biyaya ng kalayaan at demokrasya
sa ilalim ng pananaig ng batas
at ng pamamahalang puspos ng
katotohanan,
katarungan,
kalayaan,
pag-ibig,
pagkakapantay-pantay
at kapayapaan,
ay naglalagda at naghahayag ng Konstitusyong ito.
May saysay pa nga ba?
Kalayaan nasaan ka nga ba?

Time To Realize

Why are we so afraid of loving and trusting?
We build walls around our hearts and protect ourselves
from the very passion we are yearning for.
We choose to die instead of living with the strength
that the power of physical touch gives us...

I guess it's true...
Never love because your lonely...
LOVE BECAUSE YOU ARE READY!

Written by Us

"The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved...
for ourselves, or rather, in spite of ourselves." - Victor Hugo

This is our journey
We need not judge ourselves along the way
We are walking towards the same end
I want you to feel free to grow and change
and follow your life's path,
knowing that I love you for who you are and what you are.
Each step will define the story.
Each word of the story is written by US.
I miss you...

Appreciation Vs. Affection

It's never a good idea to mix appreciation and affection.

To preserve respect, don't be loved too greatly.
Love takes more liberties than hatred.
Affection and veneration do not mix.
Be neither very feared nor very loved.
Love leads to familiarity, casts out esteem.
Therefore...
Be loved admiringly than affectionately.
I've realized indeed,
That there is a difference...